April 28th update: hey guys! I wrote this post right before I decided to take a break from my usual blogging schedule. It was a tough decision to make because I really enjoyed following that posting plan for a few months! And I didn’t want to see it end, but now I’m really enjoying this break. While hosting WDYTB in May, I’m also reevaluating my posts so I can come up with new content I really love. Thanks for sticking around through this transition time for me!
I thought it would be really awesome to write this post because it’s 100% real. Instead of giving a vague update or disappearing, I want to be able to share with you what’s actually going on!
I was going to do a ‘snapshots from my week‘ post tomorrow, but I could not for the life of me put into words everything that I’ve been feeling. I couldn’t decide which pictures to share, and I just felt like I didn’t know what I was doing.
Now, my intention with that series was never to disclose my entire week. But trying to summarize it made me realize how much I wanted to downplay all the emotions I’ve been experiencing.
I wanted to use laughing emojis, cute hearts, and play the blogger role I fit into so well. I wanted to present to you the cheerful, upbeat persona I love so much, but I don’t always feel.
I need to choose between authenticity and a mask, and now that it’s come down to it, I want to be real.
I’ve been noticing my interest in blogging really plummeting. There are other hobbies, interests, pastimes, and priorities that are taking precedence, and I want to allow them to.
A lot of things in my life are changing. There are so many things I’d like to do, but I can’t do them all at once. I’m really happy about what’s changing, but I don’t have the energy to blog the way I have been for months.
I know my content will be shifting in the days and weeks to come. I don’t know how long it’ll take before I’m ready to make a new routine, but I’m willing to give it time.
I really loved the five days a week schedule, and I enjoyed posting in the categories I’d chosen to focus on. But it would really take from my joy to keep posting content I’m not into. It’s weird, because my reason for blogging is to enjoy connecting with others and chatting about my hobbies. Somehow, it’ll turn into something that I want to keep up with just for the sake of routine.
What I want to do this time is announce a break before I crash. And it’s not even an official break, more like an announcement that I’m tired and I have other things I need to work on.
The more I try to keep blogging through this transition time in my life, the sadder it makes me. I’ll be in the middle of a sentence, and my train of thought is totally gone. I’ll zone out, listen to the music I have on, and try to regain that typing rhythm, but I’m derailed more times than I stay on track. The destination gets lost in the mist and I start to feel more like a concerned passenger than a confident train conductor.
I’m busting at the seams with stories I want to write, art I want to create, thoughts I want to share and experiences I want to have. I think the best thing I can do for myself is allow myself to be free from the old routine that’s not working for me now.
This is gonna be weird, but there are actually four other posts coming out next week. I’m publishing this update as soon as I finish writing it, but those other posts are scheduled. They’re collaborations I’ve agreed to do with other bloggers, which I still want to share. After that, I’m taking time off from collabs and my normal posts. I wanted to give you that heads-up because it would look contradictory to share this post, then go back to regularly scheduled programming. I was working on those posts before I felt like taking time off from my normal content.
I’ll still be active on my blog in May because I’m going to be part of an INCREDIBLE event I’m excited about! But when it comes to my other content, that remains to be seen. I don’t know how much I’ll be reading other blogs but I might need to take time off from that, too.
I appreciate your support! Thank you so much for reading my posts 💖